Session #1- Regaining Power over Food
Oh how I want to do that! I am sick and tired of food controlling me again instead of me controlling food! I used to be in control of a lot of things- then I lost control of everything. It is time to start controlling two things in my life I can control, if not solely with a little help, and that is food and exercise. The choice is mine. I can choose to be in the habits I have formed for myself or I can choose to regain some healthy habits. The purpose of me going through this course right now is to envision that control again and see it through so that I will see the benefit above. Do I want it bad enough is the question. Sometimes I do so much- other times I sit in my self pity and just stare at the TV. I can blame it on depression- being in that state actually does make you sit and stare- but I still have choices to make. The answer isn't always "well choose to get up"- it is more complicated than that. When you don't even have the energy to think about life choices it's bad. Sometimes you have to make yourself do things because the alternative is inconceivable - like getting up and going to work on bad days. There have been days where I have had to literally force myself to get up and take a shower and go to work- why? because living on the streets is not something that I want. Living on the streets would not help my situation or well being so I fight not to do that. However, this course- Living Lean- states not to do it because something bad might happen. I can see that but I also see the other side.... sometimes you just have to force until you can choose. Of course you can always put a positive spin on it- "you could choose not to go to work and end up on the streets"- but I feel like when you have to fight with yourself you're not really choosing what you would choose if you didn't have to. Anyway.... on to the assignments.
Assignment 1
Cut out and wear the Key to Success Card and say it anytime I want to eat- CHECK
Assignment 2
When eating, do nothing else- Still hard but trying
Assignment 3
Identify your two Main Munches:
1. Real sugar- any dessert made with real sugar. I crave sweets- not fruit cake and cookies
2. High Carb foods- Bread, Pasta and Potatoes
Assignment 4
Find a picture for your number 1 goal and put it everywhere- CHECK (see the above pic)
Assignment 5
Record a minimum of five instances when you have chosen to eat your primary or secondary C/O (Main Munches) over the past few days- give a reason why you did:
1. Breakfast every day- because I have made a habit out of going through the drive through every morning and getting breakfast
2. Lunch every day- because I have made a habit out of going out to lunch and eating what I want
3. Supper every night- because I have made a habit of eating out every night on way home
4. Supper last night- because that's all I felt like making
5. Candy yesterday- justified not being able to eat it after I start program- I have to remember that I will have that choice once I start.
Assignment 6
Before the next session memorize the purpose for your participation in the program: CHECK
To be continually in the vision of Living Lean and to transform my relationship with food and eating so that living lean becomes a natural way of life.
Assignment 7
Write your number one benefit 10 times in a complete sentence beginning with an affirmative like "I want and deserve to..." and then state your main benefit- REALLY???? ugh....
1. I deserve to be able to go on a 7 day excursion to the Grand Canyon and go hiking and white water rafting every day and set up camp at night while being hand and hand with my girl looking up at the stars, breathing the clean air deeply and feeling the breeze on my thinner fit body.
2. I deserve to be able to go on a 7 day excursion to the Grand Canyon and go hiking and white water rafting every day and set up camp at night while being hand and hand with my girl looking up at the stars, breathing the clean air deeply and feeling the breeze on my thinner fit body.
3. I deserve to be able to go on a 7 day excursion to the Grand Canyon and go hiking and white water rafting every day and set up camp at night while being hand and hand with my girl looking up at the stars, breathing the clean air deeply and feeling the breeze on my thinner fit body.
4. I deserve to be able to go on a 7 day excursion to the Grand Canyon and go hiking and white water rafting every day and set up camp at night while being hand and hand with my girl looking up at the stars, breathing the clean air deeply and feeling the breeze on my thinner fit body.
5. I deserve to be able to go on a 7 day excursion to the Grand Canyon and go hiking and white water rafting every day and set up camp at night while being hand and hand with my girl looking up at the stars, breathing the clean air deeply and feeling the breeze on my thinner fit body.
6. I deserve to be able to go on a 7 day excursion to the Grand Canyon and go hiking and white water rafting every day and set up camp at night while being hand and hand with my girl looking up at the stars, breathing the clean air deeply and feeling the breeze on my thinner fit body.
7. I deserve to be able to go on a 7 day excursion to the Grand Canyon and go hiking and white water rafting every day and set up camp at night while being hand and hand with my girl looking up at the stars, breathing the clean air deeply and feeling the breeze on my thinner fit body.
8. I deserve to be able to go on a 7 day excursion to the Grand Canyon and go hiking and white water rafting every day and set up camp at night while being hand and hand with my girl looking up at the stars, breathing the clean air deeply and feeling the breeze on my thinner fit body.
9. I deserve to be able to go on a 7 day excursion to the Grand Canyon and go hiking and white water rafting every day and set up camp at night while being hand and hand with my girl looking up at the stars, breathing the clean air deeply and feeling the breeze on my thinner fit body.
10. I deserve to be able to go on a 7 day excursion to the Grand Canyon and go hiking and white water rafting every day and set up camp at night while being hand and hand with my girl looking up at the stars, breathing the clean air deeply and feeling the breeze on my thinner fit body.
Phew-- I need a shorter benefit! lol
Assignment 8
Record six ways you gave away your power over to food?
1. IGMHS- I, GOTTA, MUST, HAVE TO, STOP
a. Saying I have to stop carbs
2. The SOB syndrome- SHOULD, OUGHT TO, BETTER
a. Tell my self I should ..... all the time
3. The Desert Island Theory
a. The only place you have no choice about eating is on a desert island with a plastic palm tree surrounded by sharks.
b. I have denied myself food before because it wasn't in the plan
4. ACTS- Avoidance, Change of Behavior (in order not to have the urge), Taking something (drugs), Substitution (using popcorn because its better than MnMs)
a. Been there done that all of em.......
5. Trying to make a choice to quit forever
a. This time will be different- yeah been there. Nothing is forever- live for the moment. This course states to only live in the moment- right now you have a choice to XXX....
6. Worrying about the future.
a. Worrying all the time about future with the food issues
Assignment 9
Read the six criteria for success and keep your commitment by keeping this course a priority: CHECK
Assignment 10
Critical Thinking Assignment:
1. Think about the ways you've dealt with cravings in the past that have led to you being overweight: Avoided a lot, denied, cried, got angry....
2. Describe how IGHMS and the victimization concept have prevented you from achieving your health goals in the past: Feeling sorry for myself and using food to ease the hurt of past things
Assignment 11
Thoroughly read this Sessions reading materials: CHECK
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