Wow... What a day

Hey my friends .. and ... my man!

Today was weird. First let me say I am still enjoying my time off. I have needed some quality time off for a while- and even though I am still working from home it is still awesome. I really didn't realize how stressed I was. Being off from school helps too. What made today weird? Well, I cleaned house and I actually felt like doing it. I did laundry and moved some stuff around in the bedroom and threw stuff out so that the closet actually closed. That made me feel great. You would think that having a closet open wouldn't affect you-- but it does. For me anyway. It just represented how chaotic my life is. There is never any order. Now granted I am not an organized person and my personality is such that chaotic doesn't get to me that bad. But certain things really do. I don't understand why but closets being so clogged up that they wont even shut and crap is hanging on them and around them strewn on the floor and stuff REALLY bugs me. So that is finished and I can close them.. yaaa. I have SO much more to do. Unorganized and a complete disaster are two totally different things. The house is a complete disaster! But I am working on it.

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Well we made the commitment today. We signed up for a gym membership. We chose Urban Active. We need it- but I am scared. Scared we will do it for a month or so and then give up. I really hope not. I will have to pray for guidance and strength. Maybe if we push each other we can make it work. This gym is totally awesome. It has a pool, racket ball court, separate men's and women's locker rooms- the women's locker room has a sauna, whirlpool, showers, lockers and a separate women's only work out center!- The men's has the sauna, whirlpool, showers, locker room and a separate lounge area with a 52 inch screen TV. They have TWO floors of equipment, a room for cycling group classes, a THEATER MOVIE room with elliptical machines, treadmills, and stair machines and you do them in the dark while watching this movie on a movie screen. They have scheduled movies so you can go when there is a movie that you want to watch. They have ALL kinds of group classes including ZUMBA- a dance class. They have a track for jogging or running - which has certain days that you run left and certain days you run right.. lol. They have a 20 machine area - kind of like curves- you do 45 seconds on each machine. They even have stair machines that look like a dang escalator - steps and all. They have aerobics classes, a room just for the ball exercise thingies... HUGH gym- never seen anything like it. I just cant wait to get started. I am excited about it- and I hope we can continue to motivate each other.

Well that's all I have right now. Will write more later- Love and Hugs,
C

Monday- Dec 29- a Good Day

Today was pretty good. I got to stay home and work from home. No phones, no guests, no interruptions. It was pretty good. I also put on my jeans today and buckled my belt and couldn't find the hole. I thought oh gosh.... I have gained weight. But no-- all this running around during the holidays must have been good for me. I went up a hole on my belt. YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. *does the happy dance*. I will be blogging more often after the first of the year because I will have began Weight Watchers in full swing and hopefully joined a health club somewhere. I just know I need to do something. I am kind of leery about the health club. I was a member of Curves for a year and four months. I went religiously and worked hard and didn't lose any weight or inches. I lost inches for a while and then didn't do anything or gained inches so I stopped getting measured. I think it upset the little girl trying to help me more than it did me. I found myself having to console her instead of the other way around. She was there all the time and saw me working and it just broke her heart when she couldn't give me good news. She just kept saying "I don't understand". I was like its ok .... its ok... I'm used to it. So I don't know what my future holds but in the words of my mother- we shall see.

Love and hugs to my fellow bloggers,
C

Supper today was.........

Supper today was ok guys.  It was Stevens Moms birthday so we took her to Outback.  Now keep in mind this is one of my favorite restaurants.  But I did better than I usually do!  Steven and I can eat 2 loaves of bread when we go.  But I only ate 2 small slices.  I had 1/2 the steak because Steven and I split.  I had 1/2 the potato... but I used a little butter... I cant stand a dry potato. I also had a Caesar salad and I used the fork method for the dressing and didn't even eat a teaspoon of it.  Where I messed up was the blooming onion.  And I will have to guess at the points because Dottis website only has the points for the whole thing. So here goes the points:

 

At Lunch I had 26 points left

 

For lunch all I had was the meat in the middle of the Arby's Sandwich-- can you flipping believe that it was 2 points for that!??  I went on Arby's website and you can get the nutritional information.  What is neat about the site is that you can click off the ingredients you didn't use (like bun).  So I did that and used the slidy thing to get the points and was amazed at the point value.  Oh well- live and learn.

 

So that left 24 points for supper

 

For Supper:

 

**Victoria's Filet, 1/2 portion of meat (5)
**Jacket Potato - Order plain (3)- Only ate half (Steven and I split) so (1.5)
**House Salad - Order without cheese and croutons (0)

**Bloomin Onion (whole) (2310 cal/134 g fat/0 g fiber/241 g carbs) 57.5- if you separate it into 10 pieces it comes out to 5.75 points per piece.  And I say I did have that amount.  So that would be (6) points.

**Bread - 1 inch slice without butter (2)- I had two so that is (4)

**Margarine, soft, 1 tbsp (100 cal/11 g fat/0 g fiber/0 g carbs) (3)

Grand Total:  19.5

 

Soooo... I still have 4.5 points left!!!!  Good job.  I think I will have an apple and peanut butter for a snack.  :-)   

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Hey guys,

I was excited this morning. Down to 302..... WOW. But can I keep it going? I hope so. I have started with Weight Watchers. I was a member once and have all the stuff. It worked for a while with me. We will see how it goes!

Points Target: 32

Breakfast: English Muffin (230 Cal, 0 Fat, 0 Fiber)= 5 points
Peanut Butter 1 tblspn = 1 point

Points left: 26

Food for thought for my fellow bloggers

TIME GETS BETTER WITH AGE Read it through to the end, it gets better as you go!

I've learned that I like my teacher because she cries when we sings "Silent Night". Age 5 I've learned that our dog doesn't want to eat my broccoli either. Age 7 I've learned that when I wave to people in the country, they stop what they are doing and wave back. Age 9 I've learned that just when I get my room the way I like it, Mom makes me clean it up again. Age 12 I've learned that if you want to cheer yourself up, you should try cheering someone else up. Age 14 I've learned that although it's hard to admit it, I'm secretly glad my parents are strict with me. Age 15 I've learned that silent company is often more healing than words of advice. Age 24

I've learned that brushing my child's hair is one of life's great pleasures. Age 26 I've learned that wherever I go, the world's worst drivers have followed me there. Age 29 I've learned that if someone says something unkind about me, I must live so that no one will believe it. Age 30 I've learned that there are people who love you dearly but just don't know how to show it. Age 42 I've learned that you can make some one's day by simply sending them a little note. Age 44 I've learned that the greater a person's sense of guilt, the greater his or her need to cast blame on others. Age 46 I've learned that children and grandparents are natural allies. Age 47 I've learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow. Age 48

I've learned that singing "Amazing Grace" can lift my spirits for hours. Age 49 I've learned that motel mattresses are better on the side away from the phone. Age 50 I've learned that you can tell a lot about a man by the way he handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights. Age 51 I've learned that keeping a vegetable garden is worth a medicine cabinet full of pills. Age 52 I've learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you miss them terribly after they die. Age 53 I've learned that making a living is not the same thing as making a life. Age 58 I've learned that if you want to do something positive for your children, work to improve your marriage. Age 61

I've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance. Age 62 I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catchers mitt on both hands. You need to be able to throw something back. Age 64 I've learned that if you pursue happiness, it will elude you. But if you focus on your family, the needs of others, your work, meeting new people, and doing the very best you can, happiness will find you. Age 65 I've learned that whenever I decide something with kindness, I usually make the right decision. Age 66 I've learned that everyone can use a prayer. Age 72 I've learned that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one. Age 82 I've learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love that human touch-holding hands, a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back. Age 90 I've learned that I still have a lot to learn. Age 92 I've learned that you should pass this one on to someone you care about. Sometimes they just need a little something to make them smile.

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New Food Plan

I really wish I was there! Up in the Smokey Mountains. It was so beautiful. Steven and I went there for his birthday in 2006.

I feel like, since everyone around me is, that I should change my food habits. It isn't because I want to follow the crowd it is because I have to change and I figure that if everyone else is doing it that it will be easier for me. Well it hasn't been easy at all- and it has only been one day. ONE day and I am feeling deprived, moody and I have had a headache since yesterday. Chocolate I suppose- or the lack there of. I have chocolate every day it seems. And I feel the only reason I want it now is because I an choosing to say that I can't have it. I weighed yesterday at 307. I weighed in the morning without any clothes on... and I weighed again at night with clothes on and I weighed 309. Good news is I weighed 304 this morning. I think my body is just in shock though- lol.

I think blogging will help me. It will certainly allow me to vent! And if I have some followers maybe I can get some support. Support is important when you are on any type of journey especially this kind.

I have been on so many diets so many times and had so many failures. I don't know why I think this one will be any different. I just keep saying in my head THIS time it is going to be different or THIS time I don't care if I lose a lot of weight I just want to be healthier. And I do just want to be healthier.... but I want to lose weight too. I fight with myself on occasion- I think why can't I have normal food - who cares - what if you don't wake up tomorrow and didn't get to eat what you wanted. I think the problem for me is that food IS something to me. It is important for sustaining life.... but it shouldn't be so important that I cry because I wont allow myself a piece of chocolate. What makes it THAT way for me? Why do I love food so much? Why does it matter that I might not have pie and end up dead without being able to eat it? Why does nothing taste good because I want something else?

I know what I would like- I would like to be able not to even think about food, to not care about food, to not enjoy food- for it to be just a necessity to live. I don't want to have to think about how much calories, fat or carbs it has. I don't want to have to think about if it is good for me... or if it is going to eventually kill me. I just want to eat what I eat and it not affect my health, my weight and my appearance. I don't want the struggle. I don't want it to be hard. Why does it have to be so hard?

How do you change your mindset? How do you change your feelings. How can I not feel so deprived and WHY do I feel deprived? It drives me crazy.

Well I need to get back to work... till next time!

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